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Howdy, I think you might be making an ekurei shipper out of me XD I never really thought about them much but I'm really resonating with these posts. Not only that but I'm realizing that its so up my alley because I love love love like, unusual fantasy situations where characters experience intamacy in unconventional ways, something I feel like I don'tfind very often outside of my own and my friends' writing in our own lil corner. Like woah...the romantic potential of possession, being closer to your partner than humanley possible...imagine how humbling it would be to realized you are loved and trusted enough to be invited to share your partner's mind and body as an act of love instead just using that ability against strangers to your own ends...[cries a little] Who even needs that dang guard. Maybe I'm so enraptured with this stuff cause I'm ace, lol
Yeah yeah yeah that's it exactly!! The potential for sff to create types of intimacy that wouldn't be possible in real life is a huge part of its appeal! I've seen people compare Dimple possessing Reigen to Steven Universe fusion and I've compared it to drift compatibility myself and both of these things are very tasty, but for me it hits even harder because for them the intimacy is a choice, not a natural byproduct or an intentional prerequisite. Like, it's one thing for a sff setting to make an unconventional form of intimacy part of its worldbuilding like SU and PacRim do, but it's another thing entirely when it isn't an established part of the worldbuilding but something that the characters figure out on their own!
Like you said, for most of his existence Dimple has used possession as a tactic of violation and control. That's what you do when you're an evil spirit! It represents where he is at the beginning of the series; his view is that relationships are about who has the most power and who has the least, and if you have more you're going to use it to manipulate and subsume anyone less powerful than you. And then he starts changing! And by Season 2 he's using possession as a form of protection, not for himself but for Mob. Even when he possesses people without permission (Shinra and that one bully), he's not doing it to help himself! He does it to Shinra to get him out of danger (and says, notably, that if he let Shinra die then Mob would never trust him again), and he does it to the bully to protect Mob (and he stops when Mob says to!). And then in Mogami Arc we get the first instance of Dimple possessing someone because they explicitly asked him to, where he protects Mob's body while his soul isn't in it. Possession not only as protection but as trust! And you can tell from his reaction that this is something that Dimple has never considered before! And you can tell from how shocked he is during World Domination (manga) when he's able to possess an unconscious Mob that he especially never considered that trust like that could be an ongoing thing!
The point is, by the time Dimple meets Reigen in the middle of a psychic tornado, his concept of what possession can be has already undergone some major changes due to his friendship with Mob. But there's never been anything like what he and Reigen are able to do. There's been trust, there's been protection, but there's only ever been one consciousness in a body at a time. There's been vulnerability of body but not vulnerability of mind.
And it would have been easy for Dimple to push Reigen's consciousness down until they got to Shigeo. That's another thing that gets me; there's no reason that they had to both be awake on a technical level. But on a thematic level it is Everything to me that they're able to achieve a state that we've never seen before, that I bet if you'd asked them before this happened they both would have said was impossible, that is dependent on complete vulnerability and openness from two characters who will fight tooth and nail to prevent anyone else from seeing who they really are. It's about their shared familial love for their boy and it's about how much they understand each other in that moment.
And, like, I'm also ace, and generally not much of a shipper, and I tend to care a lot about group dynamics and platonic bonds, and I think that part of the appeal of ekurei bodysharing stuff is that even if you write about it in the most romantic way, you have to remember that the first time they did this it happened because of their shared platonic love for their kid so to me it feels just. Infused with all the different types of love and connection that the show is built on. Sometimes when someone focuses on a romantic relationship it gets deified in a way that undersells all the other bonds the character has, but for me at least romantic ekurei only works because of their other connections.
#conversations#ekurei#mp100#mob meta#fantasy intimacy is SO good#it makes me lose my whole entire mind#i've been poking at a little fic set immediately post-confession that involves Reigen/Dimple bodysharing#and i have to work on it in small doses bc the overwhelming intimacy of just Existing together in the same space is just too much#i write a sentence about how it feels for Dimple to hear Reigen speaking from inside the same body#and i get so verklempt i have to hide my face in my hands and go lie down for a while
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'You really just can't fuckin' quit me, can you?' Vitali scoffed, nostrils flaring on exhale and the smoke of his cigarette stung in his nose as his eyes followed Nick's frantic pacing back and forth through the tunnel. 'Assuming I ever was addicted to you in the first place,' he said in return, tilting his head up in defense when Nick's gaze snapped in his direction. 'It means nothing anymore, Nick— you ruined everything for me. There is nothing left for us now.'
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#cp2077#cyberpunk 2077#art#art:vitali#nuclearocs#nuclearart#sorry man i'm thinking entirely too much about young vitali again he makes me fucking INSANE!!!!!!!#the cigarette in question is a fake thang by the way but like. it adds to the drama of quitting something/someone#with the whole promise he made to mikhail to stop smoking but then picking it up again anyway and losing mikhail#but missing him every single day of his life and kind of being addicted to the memories of him and trying to satisfy his needs#through nick but nick can't provide and he isn't mikhail and vitali isn't addicted to nick per se BUT.#he is addicted to the temporary relief he can get from nick because it reminds him of his time with mikhail#do you see. how insane all of this is and how insane he is and how badly i need to explode everything with my mind. anyway
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im a eurydice = solas truther btw and ill die for my beliefs
be so serious........ and lavellan as orpheus......
#I NEED TO BE LOBOTOMIZED. TRULY.#i dont even know where to start i feel like i cant even post abt this bc theres no way all my thoughts can fit coherently lol#like the 2nd act/hadestown soul-selling business is just solas committing to his goals....#who would win eurydice/solas ''i walk the dinan'shiral - there is only death on this journey'' or orpheus/lavellan walking it anyway lol#to find them and bring them home again#also if the solas-is-a-spirit-that-mythal-bound theory turns out true then the hades = mythal parallels well. they are parelleling <3#''And the choice is yours / if you're willing to choose / Seeing as you've got nothing to lose / And I could use a canary'' HELLO????#ik the other popular interpretation is solas as orpheus but idk solas/eurydice just makes me crazy . it works so well#like theres that one interaction thats like#eurydice: “i havent seen a spring or fall since.... i cant recall”#orpheus "thats what im working on / a song to fix what's wrong / take whats broken#make it whole / a song so beautiful / it brings the world back into tune''#and thats very solas coded. BUT its also such a good parellel to high approval lavellan's fixing the world thru the inquisition/anchor#and thru their kindness and curiosity and all the things he thought were lost in arlathan. the things that make him think maybe shes Real#and it could all be real and worthwhile.#solas recognising the depth and personhood of lavellan thru their [from his pov endearingly naive] actions and spirit#''i havent seen a spring or fall since...i cant recall'' / ''you show a wisdom i have not seen since.... since my deepest journeys into the#ancient memories of the fade'' what if i lost my entire goddamn mind. what if i just completely lost it lol#ok im done im so sorry i feel like harrassing every single person ive ever met with this information like idek what to do with myself lol
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nobody understands the deep, insatiable fire that burns inside of me for daryl and carol.
when i say they physically make me sick.
i love them so much. my mind goes RRRRRRRR.
platonic relationships are everything to me. and they are ten thousand percent my favorite.
they’re just sweet bbys :(
how i love them so *deep sigh*
“i can’t lose you too” WHAT DO YOU MEAN?!!!! YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA WHATS AHEAD OF YOU PLZ I LOVE THEM SO MUCH SOMEBODY SEDATE ME
#just watched 2x7 where they find sophia#just him the whole time#her saying she can’t lose him too#him being the one to grab her when she comes out of the barn#i’ve seen this episode when it first aired#i’ve seen it on my first real watch through of the show#and i’m seeing it again on my rewatch and it always evokes the same feelings inside of me#daryl is the most precious human in the whole entire world#you cannot change my mind#MAKES ME SICK#GOODNESS GRACIOUS#twd daryl#daryl dixon#twd#carol
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helloooo you haven’t heard from me in a while but since i consider u an f1 historian i just saw on tiktok a video of an intro (before the 2012 korean gp i assume) where they had the drivers with gangnam style as the music… i was wondering if you might have it since that has been driving me insaaaane 😭😭 thank you sm catie have a lovely day 🫶
Hallo!!!! Nice to see you again! I'm glad I can be held in such high esteem 😭 But please anon, we def saw the same tiktok, this one, right? A great thanks to the op on tiktok who linked me the video!!
Why did you have to force me think again about all the Gangnam Style stuff in F1 in 2012 though????(ex. BBC vid with PSY, vid/pics of Seb and Mark with PSY, both learning the dance, as well as other clips of drivers such as Felipe and Nico dancing)
#no because i spent literally an entire hour trying to find it myself and failed.....#i am so ashamed LMAO but thank god for that person linking it#and its so annoying bcs i literally looked on twt using the exact keywords and it didnt show up???#AND ITS EVEN WORSE BCS I LITERALLY HAVE THAT TWT ACCOUNT OPEN IN ONE OF MY TABS#i digress: i like to make things hard for myself apparently#my search history was just me losing my whole fucking mind#though ive learned a lot about older german f1 content!#such as a commercial where niki lauda plays a cowboy as well as a michael schumacher rap#f1 needs to slay and be camp like this again(paraphrasing Cofi)#its so cringe but i love it#those pics tho of sebmark with psy haunt me tho 😭😭😭😭😭 like why did you make me think of that again#but jfc has it rly been 10+ yrs since gangnam style???????#fernando alonso#sebastian vettel#kimi raikkonen#kimi räikkönen#lewis hamilton#michael schumacher#nico rosberg#(its so fucked up we didnt get mark or jenson)#f1#formula 1#2012 korean gp#2012 korean grand prix
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do you ever feel casually suicidal? like you're not depressed or anything you're doing fine but also it feels like a convenient option
#if you can't make connections with people or be seen by anyone then like. at least you can feel like you're helping a better cause#to like charities and gfms and anyone else#but you have to tone that down bc you're slowly losing money bc you still can't get a job#and bc you don't have a job it means you're just stuck in the house all day. which gives Way Too Much opportunity to Think about everything#and also so like. i still share a room with my sister but it was fine bc she'd stay at her bf's a few nights a week#but he's got a job that's a bit further away and basically she can't go round his as much. so now it's maybe like once a week#the room is getting messier so it gives me less energy to do anything#you can get really into an unhealthy weight loss obsession bc at least it feels like you're getting towards something#but idek is set weight theory real? bc once i get down to a certain point it suddenly resets#like honestly counting calories and donating money to every gfm i saw and writing a film script was what kept me going#but first one isn't working and second i need some sort of income and third is finished and i have no way of actually creating it#and then there's the whole lack of stable hyperfixation and ability to find new music i enjoy#and realistically what would fix me is having a good job that i enjoy and somewhere to live on my own#but until i get a job that's currently impossible. and even then it probably won't feel like enough#my entire life is lived on my phone i need more physical objects but i don't have enough space#bc i share a room with my sister. it's like all my problems are connected#and i have enough optimism that i still think it'll get better in the next few weeks. maybe i'll be able to get a job and that'll#get everything going again#but at the same time i could easily just die#I've graduated from uni. I've seen the who live 3 times. I've crashed my car twice. I've watched 30 years of corrie. I've met various dogs#what else is there to do with my life honestly#(<- joking)#but yeah like. in summer 2021 i almost got suicidal (it was just letting the occasional thought linger in my mind etc)#but that was bc i was so depressed#but now it feels like i could just kill myself. but more just out of convenience#idek. i'm not gonna kill myself. bc i have a job interview on tuesday. and just in general i won't#but there is this casual feeling of like. well i might as well. i can't describe it#ramble#suicide tw#weight loss mention
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my life would be infinitely better if sam & dean would just GIVE EACH OTHER A FUCKING HUG more often
#it's driving me up the wall#bc you know whose lives would be infinitely better as well????#THEIRS#men☕️☕️#how do you have a whole getting back together & ''we're gonna make our own future'' moment#and stare at each other with tears in your eyes#AND NOT HUG IT OUT#i'm seriously losing my mind over this it's the single worst thing for me on this show#it's not even a ''haha funny emotionally constipated men never touching each other how annoying haha'' kinda thing#it's frustrates me SO much that it's actually ruining my entire mood#just watched s5 e4 and they didn't hug in the end and it made me so mad i won't watch another episode today#fucking idiots#i hate them#supernatural#spn#dean winchester#sam winchester#the winchester brothers#jensen ackles#amy talks#baby's first spn watch
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I need to pet him
#~back in the u.s.s.r!~#why did they have to make the top of his head so soft.#why did they have to make him in general i'm losing my mind 😭#i think people have overall tord-ified him a little bit#but the difference for me is that nobody was ever convinced tord was just a regular guy#so the whole evil plot twist became his whole iconic thing#but Thomas' reveal comes so So Late in the show that my brain almost entirely indexes the fact that he's a russian spy#like absolutely it's there i love it i acknowledge it. i am using it as romcom fodder however
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can not believe i draw a whole sketch and as if that isn’t enough, to color it, i have to figure out light sources and shadows, cruel and unusual punishment
#i am suffering like no one else has ever suffered in the whole history of the universe doing this hobby i chose myself#and continue to choose over and over#evil image stuck in my head and i have to get it out#could just say fuck it and leave it at the sketch but noooo i wanna make the whole thing i wanna see the finished product#my art process is suffering and erasing and then somehow i end up with something im not quite sure how i got to#this is why i draw/paint like once a year because i lose my mind#all of it the entire thing#no mind left for me#dels endless rambles
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im so fucked LMFAO ive really done it
#this is another level of fuckery like im actually just disgusted by myself im turning into my father#actually fucking ridiculous#what the fuck is wrong with me#just gathered up all the empty liqour bottles in the whole house (a lot we don’t always throw them out bc they take up so much space#and our garbage is tiny)#pried all the spouts off them so i could get the last drops out#got maybe half a shot out of it and the worst part is that i feel better#which i KNOW is my mind playing tricks on me because when i actually drink half a shot doesnt do jack shit#lol. lmfao. im going fucking insane.#second worst part is i dont even want to quit bc it makes me feel so much better like SO much better#and i cannot cope anymore#lol lol lol lol lol im totally not losing control. i totally dont have a problem#i dont recognize myself anymore and yet i do. ive been dependent on some substance or another for the past decade#how am i equally appalled and entirely unsurprised at myself#and despite it all i just want another shot. or 12#it worked. it fucking worked i was on the edge of a massibe panic attack and i feel better. just disgusted with myself
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this one has recently finished bitb. you can tell from the reblogging! i relate to this with all of my entire soul i cannot tell you how many times i’ve scrolled through the various bitb tags
[you pass by me on the tour bus and see me shaking the gate between us screaming] HO W AM I JUST SUPPOSED TO MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE NOW. THIS HAS PERMANENTLY ALTERED ME AS A PERSON IM NEVER GOING TO BE NORMAL AFTER THIS DUDE‼️‼️ IM SO INSANE ABOUT THEM I MISS MY WEED SMOKING GIRLFRIENDS WHEN WILL THEY BE BACK FROM THE WAR (<- they're dead and have been for a year) ((<- <- im debating on rewatching the full thing from the start because i literally cannot focus on anything but this campaign))
#i make yet anothet post just for me 👍#we have mail :]#jrwi#DUDE IM SOSOOOOOOOOO SO SO SOO FUCKING INSANE ABOUT THIS#IM SO GLAD YOUVE SEEN IT BECAUSE I AM JUST LOSING MY WHOLE ENTIRE MIND
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i want ike to be in three houses
for science
#DCB RD Run#y'all know what i'm talking abt if u follow me lmao#ike rly does say all the most perfect shit but most ppl don't even get to see it these days#bc intsys won't make the games accessible and they cost hundreds of dollars for a used copy jfhsagjdg#BUT ALSO this line? REALLY fuckin wish they said to zelgius too with someone anyone even if it wasn't ike#would've been really awesome tho for it to be ike who said it so that zelgius couldn't uwu my teacher his way out of being a villain#what is it with them making ppl be like uwu my teacher and that suddenly make them not a villain fhajgdgsj#like WHERE WAS THIS LINE WHEN IN REBIRTH 2#we had tibarn with us! ranulf! shinon! oscar! SOMEONE could've said it!!!#hecky schemcky if OSCAR said it? that would be like DAMN u fucked UP tho#if OSCAR couldn't forgive you for something? d a m n sonny that one would cut d e e p#but also?! shinon! being calm about it! and just telling him outright! look! nah! you did all that shit! and now you want to uwu us to death#nah! what you did was unforgiveable and you kept doing unforgiveable things!#i mean come on there's a line out the door of ppl who wanted to get or deserved to get revenge on that guy#YES I HAD TO LET IT OUT AGAIN I'M STILL MAD THAT SEPH GOT THE WHOLE NO U DID BAD#BUT ZELGIUS DID ARGUABLY WORSE BC HE DIDN'T DO IT AFTER LOSING HIS ENTIRE FUCKING MIND#AND HAVING HIS ENTIRE FAMILY SLAIN AND HIS FOREST HOME BURNT TO DEATH#LIKE. COME ON. SEPH AT LEAST HAS A LEGIT REASON TO HAVE LOST HIS MIND BUT ZELG?#siiiiiiiiigh. anyway put ike in three houses so he can teach all the dumb stans how to be a proper mc#yeah that's right i said it A PROPER MC#blorbo is in the corner hiding bc he doesn't like these tags. see his bow? see it? it's poking into the pic#ALSO HOW COME REYSON DOESN'T GET ANY LINES WITH SEPH ABOUT WHAT'S HAPPENED POST BATTLE#this post has gone in three entirely different directions in the tags good for me good for me
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me: oh no, oh no, this fic is turning out to be so self-indulgent, what do I do
me: . . .
me: oh, I forgot. it is for me :)
#miaing#I wrote this post yesterday but writing today has the exact same vibes so I decided to roll with it :)#this chapter is so dramatic I'm making me lose my whole entire mind but isn't that just the purpose of writing
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#met the hottest butch ive ever seen in my whole entire life tonight#nigh-on everyone in the room had fucking heart eyes SO BIG for her the WHOLE TIME. and then#when she said she ''really couldnt do a relationship right now''#you could hear hearts break in that room fulla gayass bitches#ABSOLUTELY including mine in that count lmao. but also im delusional so even tho after tomorrow i know ill probably never see her again#i am sitting here in bed -- HOURS later -- SIGHING WISTFULLY like a moronnnnn#lmfao. goddamnit.#hopeless romantic central; emphasis on hopeless#she was so fucking funny oh my god. and the goddamn butchivalry was off the CHARTS#i couldnt decide whether to swoon or let my own butch tendencies make me start competing lmfaooo#she was a friend of a friend visiting from the next town over; and this mutual friend had been hyping up her arrival so much id started to#think it was bc she was trying to set us up or something. which legit started to make me kinda nervous before she got here#and now im going fucking insane because oh my GOD#OH MY GODDDDD.#literally just. losing my goddamn mind. i dont know this girl at ALL & ik i dont do casual eeeeeven a little bit & shes NOT looking for That#but... fuck. goddamn. gotDAMN she was so cool#i doubt she was looking at me much If At All lmao; we were all just chilling... im just. objectively Not Good at Being Chill#anyway im writing this here hours later so i dont text our mutual friend at 5am about how rad meeting her was like some kinda creep lmfao#bee speaks#my outfit was cute but i doubt she was lookin; esp since i came straight to the party after a performance so i was in... weird shape lmao#altho im VERY glad we got to meet Before shes supposed to come see the show tomorrow lmao.#like. now at the very least her first impression of me isnt me-as-kreon; asshole misogynistic tyrant dictator-in-chief that he is hdkdgk
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so ive accidentally stayed up WAY TOO FUCKIN LATE w my ethiopian KING - i went to take pics for this class & baked & we ran into each other on the stairwell & then we went to his place to drop his bags & for ciggys (where we grabbed LI & GOT HIM TO SMOKE TOO before he went upstairs again) & the 2 of us sent on a walk so i could take pics for this one clase & boy howdy did i learn SO much, also btw ethiopia is currently, still, in a civil war
#stream#hes absolutely fascinating like girl we both chat SO much & hes also on topic bc i derail SO fucking much & then we’ll go on tangent then#subtangetn then he’ll get us back to what we were talking abt but i literally Cannot Do That im juts like oh um… what we were taling abt#anyway#yea its 3am & i need to be up at 10am#ALSO i had tea w the chinese flatmates bc i saw arthur & i got to learn so much & also yen je explained different parts of chinese grammar#etc & it turns out that he is INTERESTED IN LEARNIGN SPANISH SO WERK IM GOING TO HELP & ALSO I MET THE OTHER FLATMATE TODAY TOO#girl ive been playing the sims w myself i’ll be talking to someone then do the little like person+ (green bar) like frendshop increased#persuasion increase d#so albert(o) is from mexico city bc i also was like is ur name albert ? sick um yea is it like actually alberto just curious xx so hes#alberto now#& arthur told me his real mame but i forgot bc literally im still running on the 4hrs sleep i got last night like yall i was like wow i#pigged out last night haha - literally bc i ate an entire bag of baby carrots - so i thought im not hungry ? no girl ur colon just full so i#just havent eaten bc then i was going to after my irst class today but i saw the chinese & harassed them until it was like 15mins until i#had to haul ass to get to the japanese class & girl … i know i was such a bitch i was losing my mind it was 2hrs & she was like ‘we will#only use an hour !’ BUT NO WE USED THE WHOLE HOUR I NEED THESE WEEABOO AS MFS TO SLOW DOWN#i FULLY dont know what im doing & these bitches r soeaking sentences & also 1 guy was arguing w the professor like girl .. shes literally#japanese ur going to have to take this L like ur british thru & thru baby#so anyway#im going to go make french fries in the baking sheet that might give me cancer#ive also never used a baking sheet to make french fries im sry i just dont get to eat these in the states bc i love hating myself ?#ive been eating so much mayo i love peri peri omg … kewpie mayo …… im squatting
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i sensed there was new oz art coming in my SOUL AND MOCHIJUN DELIVERED BC IM HER FAVORITE AND SHE WOULD NEVER LET ME DOUBT OR FORGET THAT FOR A SECOND LOOK AT MY BABNANA SCRUMPTIOUS WUMPTIOUS SCRUNGLE WUNGLE I LOVE MY SOOONNNNN
#mine#im revived im rejuvinated everything will be okay no doubt in my mind now#i genuinely mean i SENSED it i was literally telling everyone yesterday & earlier today in the headspace that new oz art would drop#& they obviously believed me bc. thats my son ik when he will be coming home i can feel it in my soul#AND LO AND BEHOLD THERE HE WAS IN MY TWITTER NOTIFICATIONS THATS MY FUCKING SON!!!!!#she did this just for me bc this week has been absolute dogshit and she knew that drawing him would make everything okay automatically#and ensure me that shit will work out very soon. she is so real for that.#what a mentally ill ally truly.#pandora hearts#oz vessalius#the angle has me losing my mind ngl like he looks. HE LOOKS!!! HE IS LOOKING AND I AM CRYING WHILE I HOLD HIM#he is so handsome in his wittle modern day outfit i love that she draws him in it every time now pretty much#god i adore him with my whole entire being every single piece of it including the entire system we all cry whenever new art of him drops#thats my son he saved my life and i adore him like the whole universe and he is still saving me even now what a little SUNSHINE#STOPPING BY JUST TO LET ME KNOW HES OK AND IM GONNA BE OK OH MY BABY BOY OH HOW I ADORE YOOUUU
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